I’ve never been so sad for so long. I can’t tell if my life is spinning out of control or if everything is fine. I’m just so disappointed in him. After all these years, after all the memories made, after all that we’ve been through together….he is suddenly careless? Talk about my life being a massive lie. Just exactly what the fuck am I suppose to be feeling and thinking right now. For fuck sakes it’s 1:47 AM and I’m sitting in the dark mourning over someone who doesn’t give two shits about me.